LYDIA PINONTOAN | GUEST

I’m coming out of one of those life stages when “How are you?” feels like a complicated question.

From the outside, strangers and acquaintances might get the idea that our life is picture perfect. We’re happily married with an adorably precocious 18-month-old, a well-providing job, a beautiful home, and wonderful friends.

But what they can’t see is the hidden loss, both personally and in our community, that we just can’t escape. They don’t see the questions swirling in my mind and wafting their way up to the Lord.

So, when they say, “How are you?” usually my answer is, “We’re doing alright.”

Yet I know that God sees the depths of my heart. He hears the questions, and though He may not always provide the specific answers I’m looking for, He always provides the comfort I need.

Recently, that comfort has been conveyed through the poetry of the Psalms, particularly Psalm 131, as God has reminded me in my frustration with the unknown that I don’t need to know everything. Or more accurately, I should not know everything, because, by His good design, God is the all-knowing Creator, and I am the little-knowing creature.

A Song of Ascents. Of David. O Lord, my heart is not lifted up; my eyes are not raised too high; I do not occupy myself with things too great and too marvelous for me. But I have calmed and quieted my soul, like a weaned child with its mother; like a weaned child is my soul within me. O Israel, hope in the Lord from this time forth and forevermore. (Psalm 131:1-3)…
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